a higher power, universal intelligence, the essence of life energy, etc.
i know for sure there is a very real power the above terms refer to,
though i'm not sure of how to limit it to any particular classification, so i don't.
i have grown very comfortable in my acceptance of knowing this great power personally,
without being able to describe or understand it specifically.
i simply call it louise.
it's always been one of my favorite names.
it conjures up images of a middle aged rural type of woman,
maybe working as a waitress in a diner, who calls you 'honey' the first time you meet her.
it's not that i actually believe there's an all powerful woman somewhere with a big warm smile,
hair pulled back, pencil behind her ear, chewing a stick of doublemint gum,
telepathically guiding me through life.
but gently allowing this image in parallel with that of a great universal power has gone a long way toward helping dissolve and discard the scary religious teachings of my youth.
i don't know who, what or how louise is.
infinitely more important is knowing for sure that it is,
and that the dysfunctional element of fear is not present in our relationship.
that's a god i can do business with.